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and there was going to be another
new hire in the room. I felt the old
familiar feelings of my panic attack
creeping in. I couldn't do it. Before we
began, I excused myself to go to the
restroom. I couldn't catch my breath.
Out of embarrassment and shame, I
left. I said I felt ill and had to leave. I
was beyond disappointed in myself.
After a couple of weeks of ‡ghting
the urge to give up—saying that this
career isn't a good choice for someone
with anxiety—I decided to push on. I
went on more interviews and worked
through the fear of the anxiety.
While waiting to hear back from
an interviewer, I had my greatest
idea yet. I would work for myself!
I would get myself back into the
treatment room where I could
feel con‡dent, comfortable, and
challenge myself in my career.
Working on my own, I can do
things at my own pace—but I also
know when to push myself. It is also
really important to me to set my own
schedule because I have a young
daughter. And I wanted to oŒer skin
care treatments only. I really wanted
